make me or break me

define COMMITMENT on the first pace:

• an act of pledging or setting aside something
• an engagement or obligation that restricts freedom of action

how about INTEGRITY?

• adherence to moral and ethical principles
• soundness of moral character
• honesty

...tough, and often, NECESSARY.

i am into this again since i can't contain how much my heart sank and broke -- again, for the Nth time. my body hurts all over, and my mind, it just can't stop thinking of how chaotic everything seems to be.

reflect on QT.. most would say: "a wonderful start of the day, to meet God and talk to Him so one could be guided with every task he'll undertake" ...sounds familiar? yeah, so you heard those words as often as you say "Amen."

but why?
why?
WHY?
why can't YOU keep a simple commitment?

i'm sure it would be something like "for the mere fact that i forgot it was today" or how about "i thought it was postponed to some other day?"

OMG.

why that?
can't you think of anything BETTER?

lame.
such a lame "wire" of reasons to blurt.
so WHY?!
why?
oh, WHY!?

self discipline is not synonymous to will power, yeah, so to speak. but if only YOU could tell your brain that self discipline means TRAINING.

i.. we! hate to admit it, but most often, we deny it.

*ouch!*

did you not know that a broken commitment bears a heavy price?

i'm tired of being so patient.
i'm tired of being so aware that alot of YOU are so sensitive to what i have to "strongly" criticize.

i just want YOU to learn SOME lesson.

i've been through a lot.
roller coaster rides.
whirlpool emotions.
i'm getting into the "age" of being a much older individual.

why can't you accept that?
why can't you understand that i'm here to HELP and not put you down?

why?
WHY?

i'm totally clueless.

but after tonight,
i won't speak a word of wonder.
my questions would remain on MY OWN.
i've boggled enough to feed my understanding.

it's all upto YOU.

if i suck,
well..
YOU suck BIG TIME.

hypocrysi.

so *SHUSH!*
zip it.
so much of the likes of YOU.
...still can't understand.
...still can't think much.
...still can't comprehend the deeper meaning of such things.
...still WAY TO HESITANT of changing.

for what?
"because one cannot always please someone"
yeah.
say... "because I want it MY WAY"
right?

*SHUSH!*

*jeez!*

where on earth have your doctrines gone?
just on the rocks?

SENSITIVITY.

i'm done.
i'm through.
i'm over,
with YOU, YOU, YOU...
ALL of YOU!

aisle.

(Buu, Chad, Lyn & Moi)

even until her wedding day,
i couldn't still believe she's tying the knot so soon.

but that's how life is.

we don't just play hide and seek, chinese garter & bulan-bulan all the time..
we don't just chit-chat over kilig jologs love stories..

we grow..
we mature..
we love,
love endlessly,
love passionately,
love intimately.

to Lyn & Chad,
*cheers* to forever loving each other!

Everything Is Beautiful

by Starfield
Worn out, wasted
Like a bird with broken wings
Sometimes grace reminds me
I don't get to be the king

But love it washes over
Love it pulls me closer
Love it changes everthing

Everything is beautiful
Even when the tears are falling
I don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing down
I can hear redemtion calling
And everything is beautiful to me

Sweetly, You release me
From the weight of what I've done
The trigger trips the hammer
But the bullets never come

And love it washes over
Love it pulls me closer
Love it changes everything

Everything is beautiful
Even when the tears are falling
I don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing down
I can hear redemption calling
And everything is beautiful to me

And love like a landslide
Like the wind
Spins around me pulls me in
At it's unveiling, I begin

Everything is beautiful
Even when the tears are falling
I don't need a miracle to believe
Even in the crashing down
I can hear redemption calling
And everything is beautiful to me (2x)

...such a very nice song ;)

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_tw|nkle_
via FoxyTunes

Dear FRIEND.

in the middle of my own personal battle,
of which song to include in the avp for lyn & chad.
i found this sweet song for a dear friend ;)

by Stacie Orrico

Dear Friend, what's on your mind
You don't laugh the way you used to
But I've noticed how you cry
Dear friend, I feel so helpless
I see you sit in silence
As you face new pain each day
I feel there's nothing I can do
I know you don't feel pretty
Even though you are
But it wasn't your beauty
That found room in my heart

Dear friend, you are so precious Dear Friend

Dear friend, I'm here for you
I know that you don't talk too much
But we can share this day anew
Dear Friend, please don't feel like you're alone
There is someone who is praying
Praying for your peace of mind
Hoping joy is what you'll find
I know you don't feel weak
Even though you are
But it wasn't your strength
That found room in my heart
Dear friend, you are so precious, Dear Friend

socialite

too much of the lure this world can give.
too much of the bratiness money can do.
too much of your existence which makes it so ironic how life could be.
too much of the likes of you.
it's just TOOOO much.

no one could be miss nice if she can't fake it.
but i know the Lord taught us to be patient in all things.
yes, by all means -- we can, if we choose to ;)
but at times, people just can't do it.
maybe because HONESTY is more prevalent in his own core of values.
so don't push it.
if you can't -- just don't!
you can't pretend too much to please people or rather be made known to men that you are that such person -- you're true enough to be called a wannabe.

har har
sleepless night
heaviness inside
this.
that.
those.
THESE things.
you.
me.
everyone.
i'm so bugged.
i've prayed, prayed so hard.
but i just can't fake it.
neither could some people.

brian gorrell
your brave move inspired me ;)

and you,
wannabes.
the "elites" as you want to be addressed.
the socialites.
BEHAVE.

legend of BANANA CUE

Minsan, nag talo talo ang mga saging kung sino ang pinakamasarap.

Sabi ni Latundan,
small but sweet siya.

Sabi naman ni Lakatan,
big but sweeter siya.

Nalungkot naman ito si Saba.
Hindi kasi siya sweet.. Kailangan pa niyang mailuto, atbp. Kaya, nag walk-out siya.

Pero.. nasalubong niya si Brown Sugar at ikinuwento ang nangyari.. napatawa lang si Brown Sugar at sabi:

"It doesn't matter how sweet you are, what matters is how you make others special because of you. ... .and, YOU made me Special ;)"

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