make me or break me

define COMMITMENT on the first pace:

• an act of pledging or setting aside something
• an engagement or obligation that restricts freedom of action

how about INTEGRITY?

• adherence to moral and ethical principles
• soundness of moral character
• honesty

...tough, and often, NECESSARY.

i am into this again since i can't contain how much my heart sank and broke -- again, for the Nth time. my body hurts all over, and my mind, it just can't stop thinking of how chaotic everything seems to be.

reflect on QT.. most would say: "a wonderful start of the day, to meet God and talk to Him so one could be guided with every task he'll undertake" ...sounds familiar? yeah, so you heard those words as often as you say "Amen."

but why?
why?
WHY?
why can't YOU keep a simple commitment?

i'm sure it would be something like "for the mere fact that i forgot it was today" or how about "i thought it was postponed to some other day?"

OMG.

why that?
can't you think of anything BETTER?

lame.
such a lame "wire" of reasons to blurt.
so WHY?!
why?
oh, WHY!?

self discipline is not synonymous to will power, yeah, so to speak. but if only YOU could tell your brain that self discipline means TRAINING.

i.. we! hate to admit it, but most often, we deny it.

*ouch!*

did you not know that a broken commitment bears a heavy price?

i'm tired of being so patient.
i'm tired of being so aware that alot of YOU are so sensitive to what i have to "strongly" criticize.

i just want YOU to learn SOME lesson.

i've been through a lot.
roller coaster rides.
whirlpool emotions.
i'm getting into the "age" of being a much older individual.

why can't you accept that?
why can't you understand that i'm here to HELP and not put you down?

why?
WHY?

i'm totally clueless.

but after tonight,
i won't speak a word of wonder.
my questions would remain on MY OWN.
i've boggled enough to feed my understanding.

it's all upto YOU.

if i suck,
well..
YOU suck BIG TIME.

hypocrysi.

so *SHUSH!*
zip it.
so much of the likes of YOU.
...still can't understand.
...still can't think much.
...still can't comprehend the deeper meaning of such things.
...still WAY TO HESITANT of changing.

for what?
"because one cannot always please someone"
yeah.
say... "because I want it MY WAY"
right?

*SHUSH!*

*jeez!*

where on earth have your doctrines gone?
just on the rocks?

SENSITIVITY.

i'm done.
i'm through.
i'm over,
with YOU, YOU, YOU...
ALL of YOU!