marriage BLUES

im not getting any younger. but i still feel so young though.. maybe im just a little bit confused of many things..

everytime people ask me about me getting into the world of marriage, i honestly do not know how to react properly.. i feel so sad about it, deep inside.. i dont know where to pick up my heart. my partner of 3 years and 10 months hesitate to talk about it.. i know the reason why though. and that's so sad to think emotionally.. *sigh!*

for many nights/days.. im still up even at LATE dawn. i dont know why.. but maybe because a lot of my friends are stepping into that world.. and a lot of people are rallying over my mind about my own wedding bells.. and i could not tell my partner about it, because i dont want to pressure him as well.. *sigh!*

Lord, please help me.