three years & eight months

laughter..
..tears
great times..
..and such weird ones
even cold shoulders..
..but most of all,
the sweet,
lovely,
cherished
memories
that would really last a lifetime! =)

thank YOU for the love, patience, understanding, and your time to take notice of me. i would never be so crazy about love if t weren't for you. thank YOU Mahal! =) *mmwwwaaaaahhhh!* i love you so true =) happy three and eight wonderful and blessed memories together.

layered strawberry necklace

you wanna have one like this? click on the thumbnail =)

these are JUST a FEW =)

can you guess how many items are there?
these are some of my favorite stuffs =)
i bought most of them from multiply sellers..
and some are gifts from my mom. now, let's do the math! ;)

mother.

4 YEARS OF AGE Y My Mummy can do anything!
8 y/o Y My Mum knows a lot! A whole lot!
12 y/oY My Mother doesn't really know quite everything.
14 y/o Y Naturally, Mother doesn't know that, either!
16 y/o Y Mother? She's hopelessly old-fashioned.
18 y/o Y That old woman? She's way out of date!
25 y/o Y Well, she might know a little bit about it.
35 y/o Y Before we decide, let's get Mum's opinion. !
45 y/o Y Wonder what Mum would have thought about it?
65 y/o Y Wish I could talk it over with Mum. . .

blind item.

What is wrong with you people?
Or should I say…
“Is there something wrong with me?”

OMG! I don’t understand what I’m feeling right now. I feel so betrayed, (|biˈtrā| be disloyal to) abused (|əˈbyoōz| use (something) to bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse) and much more negative and unexplainable words that keep on flying in my mind. It’s so baffling!!! So mysterious! I just don’t understand why there so sooooooo soooo many people who are there for the GOOD TIMES and WHEN THEY NEED HELP. And when you need them, they don’t show up or even have a heart to be felt. What kind of human beings do you guys consider yourself?!?! Friendly - USERS, huh!?!?! Such “friends” you call yourselves. *hhmmmpppfffttt!* I am so sick of your bogus faces. Sad, but SO TRUE!

FRIEND XY49##
“word of mouth fever”
I so hate broken promises. I just cannot stand the fact that some people cannot be trusted, even 90% with the words they utter.

Back in early days, I so look up to this so called “friend” because she seem to be so HONEST about everything. There was even a time when I thought she was a little dumb for asking some DUH!? questions but I realized how amazing she was because she was so innocently honest about it. I so admired her for that because she didn’t think oddly about what/how people would react to her “innocence.” But as months have passed, some other shades of the grayscale become so apparent now. When I see her or even think about her, I battle between hating her or continue on being so patient and tolerant with her. I believe she knows how I feel already. But I kept on holding on. Because I considered her as a FRIEND. A real one. But now I’m totally confused, befuddled and perplexed. She seem to slip away by herself. She have been such a snob to me. And that’s what struck me the most. I got so furious thinking about how she reacted to the situation. Instead of being sweet, I am so raged in “resentment” that I could not believe that she could be such a naïve child-like person. How could she retort this way!?

I do not understand her anymore. I weighed on the scales. Who should be the snob, who should be hurt, and who should be the one smiling. Who’s who? Well I don’t want to know. But I thought about it for quite some time already. And I honestly am so damn angry about my insights! NASUYA KO!!! I’m sooooo sooo envy! I can feel and breathe that she keeps on avoiding me! And that’s what made me ANGRY now. I can’t help it. Haller?! SIYA PA NAY GANA MASUKO NAKO!?!?! She should be ASHAMED of herself! She gets on my nerves! My blood’s boiling. My mind’s boggled.

Oh c’mon! STAND UP! I’m tired of being so nice to you!!! Maka suya gyud ka! Maka suya ang everything that you’re doing to me right now. Come to think about it ra gud! Kinsa ba ang nay atraso!? Tapos ikaw pa ang snob snob nako? And I lighten up, smile and laugh while everyone else notices you’re sad and depressed and down in the dumps aura and make their sentiments to you!?!?!?! Oh c’mon! Nasuya gyud ko. NASUYA KO!

Forgive me for saying all these. I just can’t help it. I kept on protecting you. I kept on protecting the “friendship” that we have. But what are you doing to me?!?! You’re rejecting my offers. You’ve been such a snob to me. It’s as if I’m the bad person in this case. I am so hurt. So so hurt! You have set your foot down on me. And I can’t take that. I guess you have to plunk up and get up now before we all drown.

To YOU! Please be MATURE enough to handle the situation. And do not act as if you’d want to run away.

I am patient, but I have limitations too.
I am kind and understanding, but I hate being lied to.
I hate broken promises.
A word of mouth is like a written contract.
Get up.
Stand up.
Handle the situation sensibly and prudently.
TALK TO ME!
And don’t be such a SNOB!

what do you think of this?

someone from multiply made me this one..
what do you think about it? =) pretty? =)

i wish you enough

i got this from an email, and it warmed my heart..

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure. Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said, I love you and I wish you enough.
The daughter replied,
"Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom"

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking,
"Did you ever say goodbye to someone knowing it would be forever?"
"Yes, I have," I replied.
"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?"
"I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is the next trip back will be for my funeral," she said.
"When you were saying goodbye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?"
She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone".
She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more.
"When we said, 'I wish you enough' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them".
Then turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possses
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final goodbye.

She then began to cry and walked away. They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

TAKE TIME TO LIVE.....

BETRAYAL HURTS. (Stacey de Luna)

We were the best of friends
We did everything together
We had so much in common
We were always there for each other
I can't believe you did this to me
What did I do to you?
You went out with the guy I adored
And you said you hated him, too.
You knew I was in love with him
Why would you do this to me?
Then later on you dumped him flat
You said, "He was nothing to me"
That comment made me so pissed off
I didn't know what to do
I told you off after this news
And now our friendship is through


*wahahahahahaha!
what can i say?
SOME friends think You're evil enough to do many nasty things.. but in reality??? they have not reflected on their INNER BEINGS yet!
wake up MANHID so called "FRIENDS"!!!

missin' the one so dear

Grabe! I can't believe it.. a year has passed already. I thought it was just a few months ago when Bobot decided to work here in Cagayan de Oro. But a year has passed, and he stood firm on his 1-year deal. hay.. so sad :( he's now back in Davao. Back home to proceed with his next leap. He's a very adventurous young man who has a lot in mind to really seize life's everything! And i'm so proud of him! Even though at times (well, sooooo many times!) he makes me cry and leads me to shedding buckets and buckets of tears, i am still so proud of him. I'm blessed to have known him and have met him in this lifetime. He made me realize so many things in different perspectives. And he made me grow maturely. Thanks Mahal! Thank you so much for your love, patience, understanding and everything else. *mwah!* i love you more each day.

been a month now

oh. been a month and a couple of days now since i last dropped my heart. oh well. i'll drop by soon when my thoughts will be organized better enough to mix the words i want to jot down. see yah!